This is pretty much my life at the minute in a nutshell although stuff started going wrong in mid December and then carried on into the New Year and the stuff that went wrong got progressively worse. Trying to stay strong through everything without my Wife noticing how much I’m struggling is a tough gig but if she knew just how much of a struggle everything is for me then it would make her own situation much worse so I have to just bottle everything up and get on with it.
Disagree, as the saying goes 'a problem shared is a problem halved'. But anyway, all the best, hopefully things will get better sooner rather than later for both of you.
Oh I agree with you but without going into details about my Wife’s issues (Not even our kids know the full extent) if she knew how bad my mental health was at times (I’m only like it probably around 10% of the time though the rest of the time I’m really happy) then that would escalate her own issues so the reason I don’t share it with her is to not make her any worse. Anyway sounds silly typing this right now as currently I’m having a good day and feeling great so I feel like a bit of a fraud.
A lovely day here in Wells so i wnt to the Bishop's Palace moat sitting in the sun watching the swans as they pull a string which rings a bell under the office window and a member of staff throws them some food,they're clever little buggers and the pair of them teach their cygnets to do it as well. Plenty of other birds about and squirrels so there was plenty to see it cheered me up no end. Tomorrow morning my mate is taking me to Shapwick wildlife sanctuary on The Somerset Levels where we can sit in a hide and use our binoculars to watch the animals i'm looking forward to it as i'll take some cider with me.
Had a huge panic attack this afternoon ,I was in the car driving and just felt this sudden surge of heat all over my body and a horrible pain in my left arm. I was struggling and my breathing was proper staggered and I felt like I couldnt swallow ,so I pulled over got out the car and walked about a bit and managed to calm myself down. Since I got back into the house I feel physically drained and positively listless and every joint in my body aches. I've got a lot going on at the minute and I'm f*cking stressed to bits ,I'm thinking maybe the last 12 months or so are finally taking their toll ? I think the sometimes paralyzing fear of waiting for the results of the wife's latest x-ray has managed to tip me over the edge ,all the very worst scenarios and outcomes are constantly playing out in my head.
Deep breaths babe, and if you need a hug and someone to talk nonsense with I'll be coming past your neck of the woods on Tuesday on the M6 on the way to Bo'Ness - give me a call and I'll buy you coffee and a cake somewhere xx
Been a long time sufferer with my own mental health battles, but have also been an advocate for just as long. Thankfully i'm in a good mental state at the moment, and I hope the majority of you guys are too.
I can relate, struggle with anxiety and spells of low mood myself, but my partner is going through so much that not only can she not be my rock, she needs me to try to be hers. And when I'm not able to do that, it all falls apart....Instance of this happening last week which I'm only just managing to turn the corner out of. Notice this is from a couple of months back, hope your doing alright.
Cheers, I hit a really dark place a little after my previous post where I had to talk myself out of doing something daft but right now I’m feeling in a much better place than I was back then. Things can change from day to day but on the whole I’m good thanks. I’m really good at putting on a mask though so nobody around me has any idea of how much of a struggle the last few years have been for me mentally which is how it’s going to stay.
Ah man, sorry to hear that, glad that you managed to get to a better place though.....feel free to drop a direct message if you ever need to, it's easier completely anonymously. I've always been good at keeping the mask up, but find it slipping a bit more lately (last 12 months) and it is starting to get noticed.
I'm happy to talk if anyone wants to pm me. I've recently finished a mental health awareness college course and I diversity and Inclusion in the workplace x
I think today might be the lowest day I've had since I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis 10 years ago. I might be relapsing, or it might just be a few bad days in a row, I don't know but my wobbly legs today are like silly string, my balance is almost none existant and I no longer feel safe just pootling around the house even though I'm usually hanging on to something like a table or a door frame and I've lost count of the number of times already today that I've nearly been on the floor I need to do something - anything to fight back some how and I need help to do it. Gareth has found me a couple of specialist Nero-Physio organisations in the south east and I've just fired them emails to say please help me. For a mostly positive person feeling so completely overwhelmed and hopeless is a very foreign place for my head to be. There's a panic attack waiting in the wings, my chest is tight and it feels a bit like slowly drowning. God I sound whiney
Doesn't sound whiney at all. Flare ups happen, and finding a solution that helps you out is the main priority.
Recognising there's an issue and looking to do something about it has to be the best way to tackle what might be a setback, although hopefully it's just a bad day and you'll feel better soon.
Anyone would feel "whiney" having to cope with what you do. Keep you chin up girl, as said above, hopefully just a bad day for you.
